Hokage's Room

By Itachi157 on November 9, 2007 at 08:31:13 PM

Aw cody thats so depressing....i dont get u sometimes....i asked u if u still wanted me b4 i did this....but u just urged me foward no matter how much i knew u were lying u never admitted it....just stay gold cody.....pain is the release of weakness in the body get rid of that n ull b ok

By NINJA_IN_THE_SKY on November 9, 2007 at 11:19:54 PM

i erged you for a reason, it's just like tora said...i'd only hurt you more

By Itachi157 on November 10, 2007 at 10:44:43 AM

Omg stop it! U dont get it! U dont kno used 2 that i am. I kno cos people make me feel like * every day! When i get home n u bring up watever n make me cry thats a *in mercy 4 me! U hav no idea.....

By NINJA_IN_THE_SKY on November 10, 2007 at 01:57:03 PM

U don't understand either! u have no idea what i'm going through or why i'm leaving! you don't know what's going through my head or how i feel and it's better that way!

By Itachi157 on November 11, 2007 at 07:22:19 AM

.....y....y do u keep all ur emosions inside? Its so unhealthy....cody we all love u...atleast me n tora do...but we all care about u so much n wed all feel terrible if something were 2 happen 2 u.....Cody i just want u 2 kno that u can count on us.....thats wat familys 4 man.....

By Xinck on November 11, 2007 at 08:51:29 AM

*sigh* You have to tell us how you feel. You weren't always this depressed, and I remember. I believe that no matter how much having close bonds with people may hurt you, it hurts more to be alone. The recognition that you friends give you should make you smile for we are all just like you. Please think about it. You don't want to be depressed, but the only thing holding you back, is you. Right now, you are protecting yourself by not talking and holding you emotions inside. How will you ever learn like that, or more importantly, be happy? You need to think about it Cody. To you what is more important, your friends that accept you for who you are and want nothing more than to help you, or the feeling of being safe, knowing that by keeping your distance you can't get hurt, while in reality you are only  carving a deeper hole in your heart that will be harder to fill once you realize. As a friend, I am just asking you to think things through. We only wants whats best for you, and if you think that is holding your emotions in with all your heart, then we suppory you.

By Itachi157 on November 11, 2007 at 09:09:44 AM

Cud never hav said it better myself....we just want wats best 4 u n locking things inside just makes things so much worse like xinck said....i kno that as a fact myself...it just hangs there n soon u wont be able 2 control it n ull end up hurting urself or other people in the physical sence....last year i punched someone nearly knockin him out n only 4 invasion of personal space....he was my best guy friend no less...emotions can control u n when that happens it aint pretty

By NINJA_IN_THE_SKY on November 11, 2007 at 02:46:34 PM

*sigh* the reason i hold in my emotions is mainly because i've grown to be like that, i've never let out my emotions, i've never done that. i know it's better to just just to be with you guys then do what i'm doing, but....*sigh*.

 i'm tired of you guys worrying about me so much, it isn't holding me back.....nothing is holding me back....

 i'm not gonna hurt anyone kitten, whenever my held in emotions get out of control and rage out,  i usually just cry it all out and then i'm fine.

 you guys have nothing to worry about....i'll be fine

By Itachi157 on November 11, 2007 at 10:42:45 PM

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By NINJA_IN_THE_SKY on November 12, 2007 at 07:44:33 PM

..........amazing....not a thing to read

By Tora on November 17, 2007 at 10:20:17 PM

cody, you know that me, kitten, xinck, arron and kaze are there for you no matter what. and we are always there for you no matter what. just please, learn how to open up a little, thats all that we are asking for cause we will listen to you. no matter how much of a bad day we had, we will always have time for each other and to listen to each other's problems.

By NINJA_IN_THE_SKY on November 17, 2007 at 11:33:25 PM

*sigh* i said i wouldn't come back but i guess i'll stay......tora, i know that already, but i'm an enclosed person, i keep to myself...i've always been like that, people don't change.....i won't change.....

By Itachi157 on November 20, 2007 at 10:35:11 PM [Rating: +1]

I am me n i wont change 4 any1...i 4get who that songs by...i am me by....o! Ashlee simpson...i so spelt ashlee wrong but idgafsrn....but ur wrong cody...people can change...i was 1 of those people...theres things about me u all dont kno...but i kno...people can change no matter the circumstance...they just need 2 believe in themselves n they need 2 b exposed 2 the rite people...people can change sometimes even in an instant...u dont kno how wrong u r n how many nerves that strikes when u say that people cant change...u hav no idea wat iv been thru...iv changed so many times...it hurts 2 look back sometimes...but wat do u care if u wanna b cody jerkoff n make no attempt 2 change thats fine wit me...but if by the slim chance all that sank in2 ur thick skull n u wanna change...go ahead...ill b here...we all will...but if u wanna stay as cody jerkoff leave me out of it...i cant speak 4 the others on that but who wants 2 b around an *le? I sure dont...neither shud any1 else.

By NINJA_IN_THE_SKY on November 23, 2007 at 01:41:10 PM [Rating: -1]

i'm glad you see it that way...i guess i don't have any reason to stay...if you feel that way...and think the others should too...then i best leave......

By arronhyuga on November 24, 2007 at 01:50:41 AM

Cody dont be an idiot, you think you should leave then leave but if you want whats best then youd better man up, i dont care if God himself told you to hold your emotions you have to show your heart, Kitten said people can change, She is right, anyone can change, whether or not they like it... your acting like a loser, a failure and yo9ud better stop, unless thats exactly what you are... a loser... a failure... you feel unwanted then you are unwanted, if you feel cared for then you are cared for.... no one should ever feel unwanted but if you do then you are just what you dont want to be... a failure... me and tora said we had love but what is love cody, like * anyone under the age of 20 knows, * anyone under the age of 50 knows, no one knows until it happens, until you lose that person then you will know that you lost what you love...you dont know what you got til you have it... and then it becomes nothing when it was always tat something , and you wont realize that til its gone cody...

... cody its your choice, thats why god gave you a life, to make your own choices.... but not all choicess are the right ones, this world is a 50/50 chance, being born was a 50/50 chance and when you die is a 50/50 chance... everything is a flp of a coin in gods hands... but we have escaped gods clutches and now is your time,  

Now! This is it! Now is the time to choose! Die and be free of pain, or live and fight your sorrow! Now is the time to shape your stories! Your fate is in your hands!

Dont let me down cody... the choice is yours

@ arron

By Sasuke_Fan on November 24, 2007 at 02:13:30 AM

that was some deep sh** btw are u religious are something and Ninja_In_The_Sky here is some advice for you that my big bro told me..... Just suck it up

By arronhyuga on November 24, 2007 at 02:26:39 AM

am i religious, no not really, i dont go to church or nuthin but i do have deep thoughts

By NINJA_IN_THE_SKY on November 24, 2007 at 09:31:40 PM

arron....all you said did soak in...and if what you said truely is true then i'm not a loser or a failure...i feel cared for...but i don't want that...i wish for everyone just to forget me...it seems impossible now tho....and my choice....*sigh* i still have no idea...

sasuke_fan....sucking it up? wtf man... that is some real pointless information....i do suck things up...thats all i do....

By NINJA_IN_THE_SKY on November 24, 2007 at 09:50:21 PM

thats why i keep to myself...thats why i'm in such pain...cause all i'm doing is sucking in that pain and harboring it...it rests in me...lasting each and every day....

By arronhyuga on November 24, 2007 at 09:51:00 PM

but why do you wish to be forgotten...what will that solve... if thats what you want i cant stop you but its not what anyone else wants... who do you care for more, yourself or us... do whats best for those you care for cody... and whats best for us is for you to stay

By NINJA_IN_THE_SKY on November 24, 2007 at 09:55:27 PM

i wish to be forgotten so that i can live my life as it once was.....before i joined all this....i don't know who i care for more...i know that sounds selfish but.....and how is me staying whats best for you all? it makes no sense, so one person leaves our little internet enclave...it doesn't make that big a difference...1 month half would be over it...maybe more.....i'm not saying i'm positive i'm leave yet...but i still see no reason to stay......

By arronhyuga on November 24, 2007 at 10:01:22 PM

how will it effect us... no kitten may not be with you anymore but you kow she still has feelings for you and wants to talk to you, tora will do anything for her friends and if thee seems a time she cant keep someone she cares about happy and be able to see them like how she sees you then she will feel awful... xinck you and I... were all 1 in the same man... we need eachoher... we togethr are like a tri-pod and withpout one of us the other 2 will fall... we all you need you... no cody its not selfish to love yourself more...its human...and its not just any person who leaves... is 1 of the important people... you, me, xinck, tora, kitten and kaze... even dai all of us need eachother... all of us need you

By NINJA_IN_THE_SKY on November 24, 2007 at 10:06:39 PM

i've cut kitten away already.....ask her about what happened last night...i have nothing to do with her anymore...only the rp....tora yeah i know....you and xinck...you will become a bi-pod and stand with 2....and i don't need you guys...it sounds cold but its true...pain passes and i'll live....heh...dai...i couldn't care less about him honestly...no offence to him tho...he's just never played a big role in me being here...

By arronhyuga on November 24, 2007 at 10:12:23 PM

me neither, but you are needed cody and no its not cold its human... how about the rp... you could bring Zerthus back or make a new guy... but if thats your choice to leave whats stopping you

By NINJA_IN_THE_SKY on November 24, 2007 at 10:14:30 PM

i do have a new guy coming in...if i decide to leave...that'll be the only time you see me talk....

By arronhyuga on November 24, 2007 at 10:21:48 PM

then you wouldnt be leaving would you

By NINJA_IN_THE_SKY on November 24, 2007 at 10:23:52 PM

i'd be leaving the closeness to you all

By arronhyuga on November 24, 2007 at 10:32:45 PM

the closeness is all in the rp cody

By NINJA_IN_THE_SKY on November 24, 2007 at 10:34:22 PM

not nesisarily....it caused the closeness...but it can't maintain the closeness

By arronhyuga on November 24, 2007 at 10:36:51 PM

it has so far, whats top stop it

By ARTIS07 on January 25, 2008 at 05:38:34 PM

drag