Hokage's Room

man... Well, seems like my mom is freakin right, "I can't see you with anyone." And boy I can't stay with the one boy I liked, loved, whatever that weird feeling is. I should just stay single. I can't keep anyone! Art is gonna be the only thing keeping me company now.. Everyone goes. Well, I am happy that I can be friends, do not block each other out, so kind of bond. Well, now my friend, i only wish you the best of luck on your new life. My heart still haves you, never will let go. I'll try to prek up for you, try to be happy for you, its just going to be difficult... 

My mom also keeps on telling me I'm like grandma, very unsocial. Social is a hard thing and I dont know why my mom keeps comparing me to grandma, Im not bitter or mean or hate talking to ppl. I'm just shy and dont know how to act... High school sucks, and trying to be social sucks more.. I dont come from a bad family, just a normal one. I just choose what I want to look like, I'm not emo, goth, punk, prep, or whatever people have called me (I've been called so much) that dont even try to label me. Its a pointless thing. In labels are just more labels, we are all different. The friends I thought I could go to just were a waste, they don't console, just tell me whatever and won't talk to me, so I forget them. Its hard. Man, when high school is over with, college should be easier because they seem to make you to enjoy yourself, not to be bored, to always have fun. Well, I hope I can go to U of RI, art..art..art...